It is just getting dark at 8:00 now. It makes it significantly more difficult to come home at 6:00 p.m.. It is way to early to come home. When I go home I in the evening I don't go back out except on an occasional friday or saturday. What this means is that I go into my studio eat something (tonight I was dealing with left over cheese which meant three cheese, raclette, reblochon and emmental, mac and cheese), listen to american radio (tonight NPR's Fresh Air and All Songs Considered) and then use the internet (yes, it is like using the bathroom) and then go to bed. Part of the reason I don't go back out is that to go into the city would mean about two more hours total in transit. I used to go sometimes to the movie theater but haven't in over a month. I should go back but they aren't showing anything that has excited me.

The problem is that for more than a week I've avoided going home. Saturday it was even 4 in the morning and I was riding around downtown Paris not wanting to go home. Maybe I need to get out of Paris. On that note I am going to Switzerland Thursday night for a total of about 50 hours. I will be seeing friends I know from EMU one who is Swiss and one who is living this year in Germany. I needed to get out of Paris in November and then again in February and now I will finely at the end of March/beginning of April. Got to love mood changes/depression.

I mean without depression the normal wouldn't be any good, only the really good would be good. And no life isn't that bad today I ate lunch with friends and then drank coffee and watched people in a park with an American friend. Life is good I just need out for a moment.